Kari’s Story–What’s Yours?

My passions are: writing, photography, neurology, creativity, politics, and, of course, spending time with my daughter.  I’m sure there are more, but I can’t think of them at the moment.

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For a while now (probably since the beginning of the year anyway), I’ve been searching for that perfect motivator, that piece of information that will bang open all the doors in my life and all I’ll have to do is to reach out and grab opportunities as they pass my fingertips.

It’s taken me a while–and lots of free ebooks–to realize it ain’t gonna happen like that.

And, you know what?  In the end, that’s probably a good thing.

But I looked for this during my college years.  I would wander around the halls, feeling like I was missing something that someone else could give me… A key to unlock all the boxes and then these problems would be so much easier to solve.  I felt like I was missing something.

That feeling killed my passion for the subject.

Seriously.  Try getting a Master’s degree when you feel as though you don’t have enough background information–or even the desire to DO the work to earn your degree.

It didn’t take me long to realize I was out of my element.

Accepting I was out of my element and acting on that knowledge took longer.

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Leaving school was huge for me.

By the time I left, I was ready–I’ve not missed it since. Even once.

The huge part was telling the world I had been wrong.  I actually didn’t want to do what I thought I did.

For four years, I had told everyone –THIS– was what I wanted to do with my life.  I was going to go to This School for my graduate degree and then get a post-graduate degree from This Other School.  Yeah, it was hard, but with enough drive, I knew that I could do it.

Somewhere along the line, it dawned on me that I wasn’t real good at this stuff.  Concepts weren’t nearly as easy as I had thought.  Problems became almost unsolveable–and dull.  Uninteresting.  Undesireable.

B. O. R. I. N. G.

So, I quit.  It took everything I had to convince myself that was what I wanted to do–once I had my husband’s permission (so to say), quitting my Master’s degree was the easiest thing I had ever done.

I knew that I was going to face a lot of people who I had told I was going to be an X.  Having my husband support me helped me have the strength to leave my unhappiness and my stress about “living up to expectations” behind.

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So here I am.  I found Danielle’s White Hot Truth and The Firestarter Sessions.

Now, to work on what starts my fire.  What I really want to do at the moment–I want to encourage others to start working towards their personal bit of happiness as well.  I hope my story and watching me as I progress will both encourage you–AND me

So, what’s your story?

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